Dear Prudence: Medical Residency & Relationship

[minoanmiss]

Q. Roiled in residency: My boyfriend is about six months into his first year of a medical residency program. He works 80-hour weeks and is constantly emotionally abused by his supervisors. This is par for the course in his specific program and, though he would like to make changes when he becomes a supervisor, he has little to no power to effect change now. The problem is this: He cannot, or will not, engage in any deep conversations when we spend time together. He’s so tired and emotionally fried that all we discuss is his day, some events in the news, and updates on our respective families. So many of the conversations I want to have are “off-limits”: hopes/fears/dreams/worries about our future together, trips I’d like to plan after COVID, anything that could remotely cause conflict.

I’m sick of having to manage his emotions and walk on eggshells. He has 10 days of vacation time for the whole year and can’t really use it because he’ll get in trouble with his team. He has a day off once every week or so, and he spends it catching up on sleep and playing video games to “unwind.” Even when he was in med school, he still made me and our relationship a priority. I feel like I don’t know this man anymore. I suggested counseling but the same issue comes up—he doesn’t have the bandwidth to discuss anything beyond our immediate day-to-day life. I’m at my wits’ end. What should I do?

A: It feels a little lazy to say this, but if you’re at your wits’ end, if he’s not willing to go to counseling with you, and nothing’s changed despite repeated attempts on your part, I think you should probably break up with him. Yes, even if you used to have a better relationship in med school, even if you think he’s a generally good person, even if you understand why he’s so fried all the time. It’s reasonable to believe this dynamic is going to continue for years, it’s reasonable to decide you don’t want to be in a relationship where such a dynamic is present, and it’s reasonable to walk away even if you know he’s not personally responsible for the overwork and mistreatment of medical residents generally. This relationship isn’t working for you, and this relationship isn’t changing; I think what you were hoping for is that I could offer a suggestion that would finally convince your boyfriend to take your frustrations seriously and do what you’ve been asking him to do. I don’t have such a suggestion! I just think you should leave wits’ end, even if it means you can’t take your boyfriend with you.

Comments

[likeaduck]

Ooof, a medical emergency or being incarcerated is not the boyfriend's choice, or indicative of his priorities, though.

[minoanmiss]

That's true. OTOH, I don't think there's another way to become a doctor in the US than to undertake a horrible residency, so it's not really a free choice. But this was what I was thinking of when I was musing on whether it might be worth it to put up with the situation for a finite time. It still might not be worth it, of course.

[likeaduck]

There isn't another way. But people aren't typically forced to be doctors. And doctors have *so much power* and so much of what's terrible about residency is bound up with consolidating and reifying that power that I have a hard time seeing the residents in the system as powerless within it, you know?

[melannen]

Oh I didn't mean to imply a moral dimension with those comparisons, sorry! Only that she needs to treat this as a situation where her boyfriend is physically incapable of boyfriending for a set time, and may be a different person when he comes back. Maybe military enlistment is a better comparison, except that Basic is probably less traumatic.

Though I would say that medical residency isn't entirely unlike a medical condition - the level of sleep deprivation forced on medical residents would be classified as serious mental impairment if there was a different cause. If it's hitting him badly he likely isn't capable of making the choices he would if he were ok and she needs to know that too. This isn't "he chose to be in a stressful job" this is "he's been forced by a deliberately abusive system into a place where he is, by design, being systematically destroyed physically and mentally."

[likeaduck]

IDK, I get that the system is abusive, but lots of people choose not to be doctors? Or doctors in especially abusive fields? Heck, part of the gendered aspect I gestured at in another comment is that lots of women choose not to be doctors or quit med school/residency/specific high-prestige-high-abuse fields because these demands conflict with their other priorities. Part of why people stay in the abusive system is powerlessness, but part of it is choosing the profession/prestige/whatever over their other priorities or responsibilities, and it's hard to weigh out exactly how much is each.